Jones' Jarbs
... Things to say
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
73. J.A.R.B - If only I knew
If only I knew how to say this. If only I knew just what lay ahead of me. If only I knew who would be there for me, so that I could be there for them. If only I knew. If only I knew just what was going to become of me and my personality. If only I knew for sure I’d be able to stay myself, rather than closing off in a place where no one knows my name. If only I knew for sure what was going to happen to us, but only time does. I guess I’ll just play this one by ear. Wing it; hope for the best.
If only I knew what the next move was. If only I knew where to go, in this small space there is left to go. If only I knew. How much of this secret to tell you all. How much of myself to reveal, I’d rather not point out a weakness. If only I knew what it really feels like to be sad. It’d make these glorious days all that much more glorious. If only I knew how to practice as I preach; follow all these rules I’ve set out for myself. It seems I’m lagging. If only I knew how to improve this life of mine, it seems like perfection as it is. I can’t complain, and yet here I am. Wishing there were a flaw; hoping for a hole to drain me of my joys, so that next time I have them so high, I’d be able to really appreciate them. Wishing for something to go wrong, because this seems way to right. If only you knew how painful perfection can be. But please, don’t get it twisted, I’m not asking for a problem, more so that I’m asking for something to want; something more to yearn for. Maybe all I really need is some answers, maybe all I want, is to know. Uncertainty is certainly not something to feel secure around. That just wouldn’t make sense.
If only I could write well enough to say what I mean, not what you think I mean.
Don’t get it twisted.
-Jones.
good one. I can tell you right now, if I knew what was in store for me, If i knew what is to come, I would kill myself. what point is there, of living with your life lated out for you. Wouldn;t you just be killing time? Think about it. I ponder these questions too and I choose to not even care, because if you search for something like that, that is so unattainable, you just might spend your life looking for it. So, to wrap it up, its all good, just chill?hah you can create any future you want for yourself at this point of ur life...hmm..descisions decisions...
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