... Things to say
| 42. J.A.R.B - Never miss a moment | 41. J.A.R.B - White Rabbit | 40. J.A.R.B - In a minute | 39. J.A.R.B - Defying murphy | 38. J.A.R.B - Friends among enimies | 37. J.A.R.B - Untitled | 36. J.A.R.B - Violence | 35. J.A.R.B - Yearning for more and drive | 34. J.A.R.B - Reality and fantasy | 33. J.A.R.B - Always with the endings | Current
So there I was, and all of a sudden, it clicked. It all came together, and at that exact moment it all fell down. The sky was falling. Emotions swirling from all directions. And so, in contradicting myself I decided I was confused. Which I was. After figuring it all out, after things had been so good, I could see what was there all along. Not knowing it had existed I had continued on. All I knew then was that all of a sudden I was the bad guy; I was the one committing the felony. At least in my actions, in my mind, I was. The tricky part became this; it was in this beautiful betrayal that I had finally found what I was looking for. It was because of this violation that I could finally look in the mirror and say “this is wonderland”. It was in this wonderland where I had finally found home. It was in this wonderland, where things came together, and things fell apart. It was here where I figured it out; I knew what I had done. It was in this knowing that I found a way to let go. This was how it was, and sometimes life deals cards so bad, you just have to cheat.
I had found a new side of me, one I didn’t know before. I found the me that weaved a little. I had always thought of myself to be a person of pure trust, of pure loyalty. But now I knew that I was someone who can put himself first every once in a while.
So as the words battled out in my head I came to a conclusion, this is a new day. A new time where things change, as always, but only now it’s happening faster. I have to look out now, predict a little, because just as you figure it out, it becomes something else, so be on your feet, ready for change, and don’t try to delay it, because then it will only happen faster, push harder. Take change in grace, take it with pleasure, and maybe you can even have some fun in this whirlpool of difference and indifference.
14 February, 2006 12:33
